I don’t really have much to say today..
Snowmageddon kicked my ass, my whole body aches from the hours of shoveling I did over the course of the past 30 hours or so much so that I’m kinda happy that my plans to cook with the neighbors fell through.
I don’t think I can move too swiftly at the moment.
So yeah I’m kickin it in bed, waiting on my poutine and baked potato soup to arrive.
I’m becoming increasingly addicted to social media Instagram, Twitter, Pinterest Oh My!
I seriously spent the day killing massive amounts of time with barely even noticing it, so much so that my eyes just couldn’t do my 11pm rush to clean this up and post in order to my commitment of writing daily.
No biggie, my commitments tend to be sprinkled with the understanding of fluidity, as life rarely follows my plans.
Fluid is a word I’m using quite a bit lately to describe my life, my needs in a partner, my sexuality and my interpersonal relationships.
I try to live my life under the mantra: fluidity without permanence. I’m most happy when I surround myself with people who understand and accept that, they don’t have to be the same, just understand and accept.
Everything is sprinkled with permanence, but there is the fluitidty to life that we are always constantly trying to fuck up, interfere with or out out interrupt, usually because we are afraid or mostly because “it not what we planned”
Every hear Mr. Lennon’s words “Life is what happens when you are busy making other plans”?
Well it’s true, and that my friends is why fluidity is sooo important to me, even though I have all the time in the world, there is far tooo much to do in life than to spend all my time fighting portions of it and trying to bend it to my will.
Like I tell my kid:
“Baby, there are many many parts of life, most of which your mother has no clue about, but I can tell you this: there is the part of life you appear to control, and then there’s the other part of life that you do not control whatsoever, like the weather, and when those two meet, it’s alllllllllllll about how you deal with it that makes the difference.
It’s like a tornado, you can prep for it, pray about it, keep your family safe and do allllll the things you are supposed to, and still lose it all when that tornado whips by and demolishes your house but leaves all your neighbors homes standing.
You need to be fluid baby, you need to adapt, be in the moment, see what your presented with and somehow “go with the flow.” If you insist on not incorporating the new aspect that you’ve been hit with , then stuck you will be, because you can not move forward without this new aspect. You have to work with it, and find your way through it. Create new plans, discard the old ones, adapt. Tap into that rhythm, bring together the revealed unknown and the known and move forward.”
Most of the time all we do is cling on to what we want, and be angry and hurt that we can’t have it anymore because “life came along and fucked it up”. It’s not easy being fluid precisely because of the lack of permanence, we like our plans, our ideals, our concepts, we love to hold onto them and say “mine” and we super dislike it when life comes along and so-called “fucks with them”
The truth of the matter which is something I try very hard to explain, so bear with me, life never fucks with us, our egos guide the majority of our lives and so when things don’t go our way because of life interference we tend to think of it as a bad thing, but it’s been my experience since practicing this fluidity of thought and life, that life is usually helping us, that “life” tends to be a tad smarter and is usually trying to avoid disaster, sometime even appearing in the form of a disaster.
This is what I refer to as the rhythm of life. There is a rhythm, a hum, a cumulation of all that is, and all that will be humming around us, resistance is futile.
Well not ok futile, I just wanted to Picard it up for a sec, resistance just makes life soooo much harder than necessary, when you are fluid and able to shed and adapt, you see more, hear more and more open to people, places, things. You don’t hold onto anything and try to keep it, you just BE.
It’s really lovely.
I highly recommend it.